My Executives are Dysfunctioning
Sep. 1st, 2024 08:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
highpotinnooseI really don't know why I find it SO hard to just . . . write down the words I want to write down for the fic I'm supposed to be working on. One would think that after 300k+ words on that fic alone that it would be easy as pie to simply type out the scene in my head. And yet. . . .
It's not as if I have any trouble with typing out what's in my head as it comes to me. I'm literally doing it right now, as I type up this post rather than working on that fic. I've had it outlined for literally years; I've had the main plot and ending planned since the beginning; I'm literally in the middle of one of the parts I've been most excited to write. And yet. . . .
I'm even working on it on 4TheWords, that browser rpg where you fight monsters and do quests by writing! The first time I started using 4TheWords, I wrote 3k words in one sitting! I was fit to be gagged! But now my goblin brain has worked out that the game can't make me write if I don't actually hit the 'Start Battle' button! I'm literally self-sabotaging right before my own eyes, and yet the only thing I can do is get up for snacks and whine about it on my blogs. Why am I like this?
Look! Three paragraphs right there in under 5 minutes! Why didn't I use those three paragraphs for my fic rather whatever this is supposed to be?
Ugh. I'm getting a drink.
It's not as if I have any trouble with typing out what's in my head as it comes to me. I'm literally doing it right now, as I type up this post rather than working on that fic. I've had it outlined for literally years; I've had the main plot and ending planned since the beginning; I'm literally in the middle of one of the parts I've been most excited to write. And yet. . . .
I'm even working on it on 4TheWords, that browser rpg where you fight monsters and do quests by writing! The first time I started using 4TheWords, I wrote 3k words in one sitting! I was fit to be gagged! But now my goblin brain has worked out that the game can't make me write if I don't actually hit the 'Start Battle' button! I'm literally self-sabotaging right before my own eyes, and yet the only thing I can do is get up for snacks and whine about it on my blogs. Why am I like this?
Look! Three paragraphs right there in under 5 minutes! Why didn't I use those three paragraphs for my fic rather whatever this is supposed to be?
Ugh. I'm getting a drink.
